A Friend

I wish I was there. Sitting next to you. Holding you. Loving you. I wish I could just do more to help... I'm so far away I feel like there is nothing I can do. I just want to be there with you the second you say you need a friend. We have so many memories and it's sad that we won't be making as many. But I'll always be here for you the second you need me. You will always be my closest friends in life. I miss you friend...

-Written for two of the closest people I will ever have in my life.

Not the best day...

Not the best day... for a trip. Not the best day... for window washing. Not the best day... in our home. Not the best day... For family. Not the best day... for smiling. Not the best day... for talking. Not the best day... for seeing him. Not the best day... for seeing friends. Not the best day in general. But I guess you have to make the best out of it.

Conversations

Conversation- informal interchange of thoughts, information, etc., by spoken words; oral communication between persons; talk; colloquy. 

This definition makes conversation seem so easy. Just an informal interchange of thoughts, not too hard right? On the contrary a conversation can be so difficult, starting them, keeping them going, picking topics etc. And yet they are one of my favorite things. Talking to people is one of my favorite pass times, hearing about their day, listening to a story or a joke and even talking just to kill the silence. The funny thing is I think people like to talk to me just as much as I like to talk to them. Everyone I know, even if I don't know them that well, open up to me. They are comfortable and willing to just talk to me about their life. I have heard about so many adventures and hardships people have experienced. I'm truly blessed to have this gift of communicating with people. :)  

 

Beautiful

Do you ever have one of those days when you just feel beautiful? Not actually on the outside or your appearance but just in the world. You let go and don't care about how you look when the window is down and your hair just blows around everywhere. But instead you just watch the world go by, listen to the passing cars, the blowing wind, people talking and laughing, and just watch life as it happens. You get to see and feel real beauty. The the sun gently rests on you, the wind softly brushes past you whispering sweet words in your ears, and you hear the soft rustle of the trees. When you run into an old friend, sharing a smile or a hug, hearing a laugh, just being part of the world. That what makes me feel beautiful.

9 months

I never really think about how old I am or how old I will be on my next birthday. I never make a count down from one year to another. I just live life going from day to day. But my dad made me laugh when he brought up the fact that I will be turning 16 this year, here's why...

My dad says "Mariah in 9 months you will be 16! That's about how long a pregnancy is. So it's kind of like you are pregnant."
I responded with "Yes dad I will be 16 in 9 months, but I am most defiantly not pregnant!"
He says "No no its totally like you're pregnant. You just conceived the thought that you will be 16 and you have about 9 months to prepare. This starts your first trimester, you'll start to feel sick just thinking about being 16. You will worry about everything changing and how it's a big step that comes with big responsibilities. Next you'll head into your second trimester, right about when summer starts. So you'll be just fine and a little excited. You'll just enjoy the time you have left as a fifteen. But then your third trimester... You'll be ready for 16. You are just done with fifteen. You want your license and a boyfriend and whatever else comes with 16. You'll plan a party and worry about where the party will be, who will be there, and what you'll wear. Then BAM! Your birthday comes and you are 16!! Everything's over. Just like that all the planning and worrying over with. After 9 long months one day is all it takes and you are 16."
"...." I have no responds and just stare at him blankly...
Dad "See totally works. Just like you are pregnant."
I just say "... It's so weird that what you just said makes total sense."

I love how my dad can think of this and totally make sense our of it. I guess I'm pregnant now... Not sure how I feel about this. ;)

Sing a New Song

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

The Call by Regina Spektor